We had broken up for good just an hour before,
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
And now I'm staring at the bodies as they're dancing 'cross the floor.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
And then the band slowed the tempo, and the music gets you down.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
It was the same old song, with a melancholy sound.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
They don't write 'em like that anymore.
They just don't write 'em like that anymore.
We'd been living together for a million years,
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
But now it feels so strange out of the atmospheres.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
And then the jukebox plays a song I used to know.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
And now I'm staring at the bodies as they're dancing so slow.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
They don't write 'em like that anymore.
They don't write 'em like that anymore.
Now I'm winding up staring at an empty glass
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
Cause it's so easy to say that you'll forget your past.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah.
They don't write 'em like that anymore.
No, they just don't write 'em like that anymore.
Oh, they don't write 'em like that anymore.
They just don't write 'em like that anymore.
They just don't, no they don't, no no, uh-uh,
They just don't write 'em like that anymore.
They just don't...(fades)
My Life And Death
Monday 24 December 2012
Sunday 16 December 2012
Why Do You Need It?
USA has a gun culture problem.
Did you know you can buy handguns and automatic rifles in USA and depending on the state laws.. depends if you even have to register it, licence it, report it missing or even tell anyone you own one.
Ok, arguments for owning a wepon.
1. Self defence
2. Protection of property
3. Hunting
4. Sports interest
5. Decorative use.
1. Self defence.. ok, i understand that some parts of the USA are "troubled" and the need to carry a wepon is a must if you want to survive a trip to the local 7 - 11 or the post office. and for that, i understand why you would need a gun. But, the most you would ever need is a Tazer, a cattle prod, or a small hand gun such as the .38 smith and wesson or maybe at the very most a colt 1911 or a simular handgun.. why would you need an AR 15 or an M 16 or a M 50 or a Cold Commando or an Uzi 9mm????
2. Protection of Property.. ok, some farmers for instance are waaay out in the wilderness.. and yeah, it is also part of the "self defence" remit.. and yeah, you could be faced with wild bears and wolves and maybe some night stalker shagging your sheep.. and yeah i can understand a hand gun would be pretty crap when your target is 300 meters away. Apart from the fact that you could always just take photos and then report it to the cops and have "evidence" to hand to them..preferably a face and a photo of the crime.. why would you again.. need any weapon at all? I would still agree a hand gun is best here, as really.. is it worth shooting someone for if your sheep get violated or a bear attacks your prize cow?
3. Hunting.. ok, as a sport i would understand.. and most hunters are actually quiet switched on when they choose thier weapon.. usually a single shot rifle or a shotgun.. and they tend to only ever use it for the purpose of hunting. so, i would agree with thier weapons choice. and why they have one. this also includes the "sports interest" so add number 4 here too.
5. Decoration.. again i understand here.. most people would only want the rifle and not the ammunition to shoot anything with and i understand these people as well.
So, with that in mind.. what is "overkill" on "home defence"? .. I would say, anything over a handgun is over kill and only shows how paranoid the home owner is.. its either that or they fancy themselves as Rambo or GI Joe or some Commando or something and the over kill on weapons choice is solely for the purpose of them staying away from the Valium... its either that or they seen one too many Schwartzennegger movies and fancy themselves as the new age Burt Gummer and they think the communists are heading over to wipe the yanks out.. or its either that or they think the Aliens are coming.. conclusion.. Mentally unstable?
And owning a weapon of military spec.. when you are not in the military and not expecting the invasion of aliens and flying sausers is the main problem i feel. And the fact that "anyone" can buy one and own one and not tell the cops that you have one and when they have drinking and drug problems or are paranoid and mentally fucked in the head.. only one outcome is gonna happen.. bang bang... 20 children dead.
Did you know you can buy handguns and automatic rifles in USA and depending on the state laws.. depends if you even have to register it, licence it, report it missing or even tell anyone you own one.
Ok, arguments for owning a wepon.
1. Self defence
2. Protection of property
3. Hunting
4. Sports interest
5. Decorative use.
1. Self defence.. ok, i understand that some parts of the USA are "troubled" and the need to carry a wepon is a must if you want to survive a trip to the local 7 - 11 or the post office. and for that, i understand why you would need a gun. But, the most you would ever need is a Tazer, a cattle prod, or a small hand gun such as the .38 smith and wesson or maybe at the very most a colt 1911 or a simular handgun.. why would you need an AR 15 or an M 16 or a M 50 or a Cold Commando or an Uzi 9mm????
2. Protection of Property.. ok, some farmers for instance are waaay out in the wilderness.. and yeah, it is also part of the "self defence" remit.. and yeah, you could be faced with wild bears and wolves and maybe some night stalker shagging your sheep.. and yeah i can understand a hand gun would be pretty crap when your target is 300 meters away. Apart from the fact that you could always just take photos and then report it to the cops and have "evidence" to hand to them..preferably a face and a photo of the crime.. why would you again.. need any weapon at all? I would still agree a hand gun is best here, as really.. is it worth shooting someone for if your sheep get violated or a bear attacks your prize cow?
3. Hunting.. ok, as a sport i would understand.. and most hunters are actually quiet switched on when they choose thier weapon.. usually a single shot rifle or a shotgun.. and they tend to only ever use it for the purpose of hunting. so, i would agree with thier weapons choice. and why they have one. this also includes the "sports interest" so add number 4 here too.
5. Decoration.. again i understand here.. most people would only want the rifle and not the ammunition to shoot anything with and i understand these people as well.
So, with that in mind.. what is "overkill" on "home defence"? .. I would say, anything over a handgun is over kill and only shows how paranoid the home owner is.. its either that or they fancy themselves as Rambo or GI Joe or some Commando or something and the over kill on weapons choice is solely for the purpose of them staying away from the Valium... its either that or they seen one too many Schwartzennegger movies and fancy themselves as the new age Burt Gummer and they think the communists are heading over to wipe the yanks out.. or its either that or they think the Aliens are coming.. conclusion.. Mentally unstable?
And owning a weapon of military spec.. when you are not in the military and not expecting the invasion of aliens and flying sausers is the main problem i feel. And the fact that "anyone" can buy one and own one and not tell the cops that you have one and when they have drinking and drug problems or are paranoid and mentally fucked in the head.. only one outcome is gonna happen.. bang bang... 20 children dead.
Gun Culture USA
(CBS) -- The massacre at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Conn.,
on Friday was another in a long list of mass shootings in the U.S. this
year.
Pictures: Mass shootings in 2012
Just three days ago,
22-year-old Jacob Tyler Roberts opened fire on holiday shoppers at the Clackamas Town Center in Oregon, killing two people and then himself. These recent shootings were just the latest involving multiple victims in public places this year. From 12 people killed in a movie theater in Colorado in July, to three high school students killed in Ohio in February, such public shooting incidents have been far from rare. Crimesider compiled details on 13 of the 2012 shootings, attemping to determine what kind of weapons were used in each incident, and whether the suspects' firearms were obtained legally. However, our list is not comprehensive.
In July, for example, five people were shot at a basketball tournament in New York City; in March, two people were killed and 12 injured in gunfire outside a North Miami funeral home; and in June, three people died and two others were wounded in a shooting outside a Houston nightclub. Not to mention dozens of victims killed on the streets of Chicago and other cities. We steered away from incidents believed to involve gang violence, identifying situations where armed men (and they are all men) opened fire in a public place, killing and/or maiming those gathered there
1. February 22, 2012 Su Jung Health Sauna, Norcross, Ga. Just days before the Su Jung Health Sauna was set to open, 59-year-old Jeong Soo Paek walked into the spa and shot and killed four people, then turned the gun on himself. According to the Atlanta Journal-Constitution, the impetus for the shooting may have been financial. The paper reported that the victims were Paek's sisters and their husbands, from whom Paek wanted money.
Weapon used: .45 caliber pistol
Gun bought legally?: Yes.
According to Captain Brian Harr of the Norcross Police Department, Paek owned the gun legally, but Harr did not know where he had obtained it. State gun laws: Georgia does not require a background check for the transfer of a firearm between private parties (such as a transaction at a gun show), according to the Law Center for the Prevention of Gun Violence (LCPGV) Ammunition sales are not regulated, nor is the number of firearms purchased at one time limited. According to a report by Mayors Against Illegal Guns, in 2006-2009, Georgia exported more guns used in crimes than any other state.
2. February 27, 2012 Chardon High School, Chardon, Ohio On the morning of Feb. 27, 17-year-old T.J. Lane allegedly walked into the cafeteria of Chardon High School, pulled out a .22 caliber handgun and began shooting at students gathered there before class. Three people were killed and three others wounded. Lane was captured soon after about a mile from the school. Lane has pleaded not guilty to the charges against him. A judge ruled he will be tried as an adult.
Weapon used: .22 caliber pistol
Gun bought legally?: Unclear.
The gun did not belong to Lane and Chardon Police Chief Tim McKenna told Crimesider that reports that Lane got the gun from his grandfather's barn are incorrect. However, due to a gag order in the case, he declined to say whose gun it was and whether it was purchased legally. State gun laws: Ohio requires that a gun owner report if his firearm has been lost or stolen, but does not require background checks for gun sales between private parties, nor does it impose a waiting period on firearm purchases, limit the number of guns that can be purchased at one time, or require gun dealers to obtain a license, according to the LCPGV.
3. March 6, 2012 Tulsa Courthouse, Tulsa, Okla. Three people were wounded when 23-year-old Andrew Joseph Dennehy allegedly opened fire outside the Tulsa County Courthouse on the afternoon of March 6. Dennehy was shot by a police officer at the scene, but not killed. On July 2, Dennehy's defense argued that he had since been examined by a psychiatrist and was suffering from psychotic delusions that render him incompetent to stand trial on charges of shooting with intent to kill and reckless conduct with a firearm.
Weapon used: .357 revolver
Gun bought legally?: No.
Dennehy, whom a court had judged to be delinquent as a juvenile, was prohibited from carrying - let along purchasing - a gun. According to first assistant district attorney Jack Thorpe, there is an ongoing investigation into how Dennehy obtained his weapon. State gun laws: According to the Brady Campaign to Prevent Gun Violence, Oklahoma has among the weakest gun laws in the nations, scoring a 2 of 100 on the organization's rating scale. Oklahoma does not require gun owners to obtain a license or register their firearms. No background check is required for purchase of a firearm between unlicensed individuals, and firearms dealers do not need a state license. In addition, according to the Law Center to Prevent Gun Violence, the state does not require its agencies to add the names of mentally ill individuals to the FBI's National Instant Criminal Background Check System (NICS).
4. March 8, 2012 University of Pittsburgh Medical Center, Pittsburgh, Pa. Around 1:40 p.m. on March 8, police say that John F. Shick, 30, entered the Western Psychiatric Institute and Clinic and began shooting. One person was killed and seven wounded in the attack. Shick, who had reportedly been diagnosed with schizophrenia, was killed in a shootout with police
Weapons used: Shick was armed with two 9mm handguns
Guns bought legally?: No.
According to Allegheny County District Attorney Steve Zappala, Shick bought the weapons he used in New Mexico, which, according to the Law Center to Prevent Gun Violence, does not require a background check for firearm purchases between private individuals. According to an ATF investigation into the incident, Shick's Beretta 9mm was originally issued to a Texas sheriff's deputy in 1994. The deputy pawned the gun in 2000 and it eventually ended up at a gun show in Albequerque in 2010 where it was bought, without paperwork, and then sold via classified ad a year later. John Karnis, the man who bought the gun via the ad, told the ATF that he placed his own ad in the newspaper when he wanted to sell the gun in April 2011. Shick - who the seller described as "quiet and distant" - bought it from him, without paperwork. The second firearm, an Arsenal Inc 9mm, was originally purchased in Albequerque in 1995 by a doctor who then sold it to a dealer, who then sold it to Karnis. Karnis sold both the Arsenal and the Beretta to Shick in April 2011. Zappala said that Shick previously tried to buy a gun in Oregon, but was unable to do so, possibly because he had once been committed to a psychiatric institution there. Because of that, and another such commitment in New York, Shick would not have been able to buy a gun legally in Pennsylvania. Zappala also said that Shick ordered the ammunition he used from Europe over the internet. State gun laws: Pennsylvania requires a background check for private purchase of a firearm, but does not impose a limit on the number of firearms that can be purchased at one time, nor does the state impose a waiting period or regulate ammunition sales, according to the LCPGV.
5. April 2, 2012 Oikos University , Oakland, Calif. On April 2, One L. Goh, 43, allegedly killed seven people and injured three more when he opened fire at the small Christian college in Oakland. Goh had been a nursing student at the college which catered to Korean immigrants, before withdrawing in 2011. He was reportedly angry that the college had not refunded several thousand dollars of his tuition. Goh was arrested after walking into a nearby grocery store and reportedly saying, "I just shot some people." He has pleaded not guilty to seven counts of murder and three counts of attempted murder. Pretrial for the case is scheduled to begin Oct. 1.
Weapons used: A semiautomatic handgun and four magazines of ammunition
Gun bought legally?: Yes.
The gun was purchased in California about two months prior to the shooting, according to the Oakland Police Department. State gun laws: By most accounts, California has the strictest gun laws in the country. According to the LCPGV, the state imposes a 10-day waiting period on all firearm purchases and in 1999 mandated that waiting periods and other restrictions be extended to purchases made at gun shows. California also bans all large capacity ammunition magazines and most assault weapons and 50 caliber rifles. In 2007, California became the first state to require microstamping of handguns. That's the process of imprinting microscopic characters on firearms that will transfer to bullet casings, thus allowing police to trace bullets found at a crime scene without having to recover the weapon itself.
6. May 30, 2012 Cafe Racer, Seattle, Wash. Just before 11 a.m. on May 30, 40-year-old Ian L. Stawicki allegedly started shooting inside a Seattle café near the University of Washington-Seattle campus. Police say Stawicki killed four people inside the café, which was known as a gathering place for local artists and musicians. According to the Seattle Times, police say Stawicki then shot a woman near the Town Hall and stole her SUV. By 4p.m., he had reportedly abandoned the SUV and soon after being surrounded by police, fatally shot himself in the head.
Weapons used: Stawicki was armed with two .45 caliber semiautomatic handguns
Guns bought legally?: Yes.
Stawicki had legally purchased both guns, as well as two others. He also had a valid permit to carry a concealed weapon. In February 2008 Stawicki was charged with four misdemeanor domestic violence counts, but the charges were later dropped. In her statement, his girlfriend at the time wrote that "starting last winter, he became more violent, breaking my things, losing control of his feelings, there's no pattern." In 2010, he was arrested for allegedly assaulting his brother, though those charges were also dropped, according to the Times. State gun laws: Washington State does not require background checks for the purchase of a firearm between private parties, according to the LCPGV. The National Rifle Association reports that the state does not require gun buyers to have a license or permit, nor do Washington State gun owners have to register their guns. The state does, according to the LCPGV, prohibit some individuals with records of domestic violence from owning firearms.
7. June 9, 2012 Auburn University pool party, Auburn, Ala. During an afternoon pool party in an apartment complex near the Auburn University campus, 22-year-old Desmonte Leonard allegedly got in an argument over a woman and then opened fire, killing three people and injuring three others. Leonard eluded police for several days, and finally turned himself in on June 12. Leonard faces three counts of capital murder, two counts of assault have been filed so far, according to the Associated Press.
Weapons used: Unclear. According to Captain Tom Stoffer of the Auburn Police Department, police have found a firearm they believe may have been used in the shooting and have sent it for testing.
Gun bought legally?: Unclear.
State gun laws: Alabama does not require gun owners to register their firearms, nor does the state impose a waiting period or background check on private purchases, according to the LCPGV. The state also does not prohibit the sale or transfer of assault weapons or large capacity ammunition magazines. However, according to the NRA, "it is unlawful for a drug addict, habitual drunkard, or one who has been convicted of a crime of violence to own or possess a handgun." Minors are also not permitted to carry or possess handguns.
8. July 17, 2012 Copper Top bar, Tuscaloosa, Ala. During the early morning hours of July 17, 44-year-old Nathan Van Wilkins allegedly opened fire in a crowded bar near the University of Alabama. Seventeen people were injured in the attack but no one was killed. According to the Tuscaloosa News, less than an hour before he arrived at the bar, Wilkins went to a nearby home and shot at a man inside the house, possibly in a case of mistaken identity. Wilkins has been charged with 18 counts of attempted murder.
Weapon used: Unclear. According to Sgt. Kip Hart of the Tuscaloosa Sheriff's Department, Wilkins' gun has not yet been recovered, but he believes it was likely an "AK-47-type rifle."
Gun bought legally?: Unclear.
State gun laws: Alabama does not require gun owners to register their firearms, nor does the state impose a waiting period or background check on private purchases, according to the LCPGV. The state also does not prohibit the sale or transfer of assault weapons or large capacity ammunition magazines. However, according to the NRA, in Alabama "it is unlawful for a drug addict, habitual drunkard, or one who has been convicted of a crime of violence to own or possess a handgun." Minors are also not permitted to carry or possess handguns.
9. July 20, 2012 Century 16 movie theater, Aurora, Colo. Just after midnight on July 20, police say James Holmes, dressed in black and sporting nearly head-to-toe tactical garb, set off some sort of smoke bomb inside Theater 9 of the Century 16 movie theater. Holmes allegedly began shooting at the audience, who was there to see a premiere of the new Batman movie, "The Dark Knight Rises." Twelve people were killed, 58 others injured, several of whom are still hospitalized. Holmes surrendered to police soon after the massacre in the parking lot behind the theater. His apartment was allegedly "booby-trapped," rigged with what the Aurora police chief described as "incendiary and chemical" devices which authorities disabled or detonated. Holmes is under investigation for first-degree murder and will appear in court on July 31.
Weapons used: Police say Holmes used a semiautomatic AR-15 rifle, a shotgun and a .40 caliber Glock handgun
Guns bought legally?: Yes.
According to Aurora Police Chief Daniel Oates, all three of the guns used in the incident, plus a second Glock allegedly found in Holmes' car, were purchased legally in the state of Colorado. In the weeks leading up to the incident, police say Holmes had purchased 6,000 rounds of ammunition over the internet. State gun laws: Colorado imposes no waiting period to purchase a firearm, nor does it impose a limit on the number of firearms that can be purchased at one time, according to the LCPGV. The state requires mentally ill individuals who are deemed ineligible for purchasing a firearm to be reported to the federal NICS database. In 2000, in the wake of the Columbine High School massacre, the state used a ballot initiative to close the so-called "gun show loophole," in which private sales do not require a background check. However, the state does not prohibit a person from purchasing assault weapons or large capacity magazines. Colorado gun owners do not have to obtain licenses, register their guns, or report lost or stolen guns.
10. August 5, 2012 Sikh Temple of Wisconsin, Oak Creek, Wisc. As worshippers prayed and meditated, 40-year-old Wade Michael Page walked into the temple and opened fire, killing six. Wade, who was reportedly a white supremacist, was killed in a shoot-out with police.
Weapons used: 9mm handgun
Guns bought legally?: Yes.
State gun laws: According to the National Rifle Association, Wisconsin requires no background check nor a license or permit to purchase or carry a firearm.
11. October 21, 2012 Azana Day Spa, Brookfield., Wisc. Radcliffe Franklin Haughton, 45, opened fire in a suburban day spa, killing his wife, Zina Haughton, and two other women, and injuring four others before killing himself. In a written request for a restraining order filed Oct. 8, Zina Haughton said her husband was convinced she was cheating on him and that aside from the acid threat he also vowed to burn her and her family with gas. He said he would kill her if she ever left him or called the police, according to the court papers obtained Monday by The Associated Press.
Weapons used: .40 caliber semiautomatic handgun Guns bought legally?:
Unclear.
State gun laws: According to the NRA, Wisconsin requires no background check nor a license or permit to purchase or carry a firearm.
12. December 11, 2012 Clackamas Town Center, Clackamas, Ore. Jacob Tyler Roberts, 22, walked into the mall wearing a hockey-style mask and an ammunition-packed vest and opened fire, killing two people and then himself.
Weapons used: AR-15 rifle
Guns bought legally?: Not by Roberts.
Police say Roberts had stolen the weapon from someone he knew. State gun laws: According to the Brady Campaign, Oregon requires background checks for gun sales at gun shows, but does no require a state license to possess a handgun or handgun registration. The state also does not require firearm owners to report a stolen weapon.
13. December 14, 2012 Sandy Hook Elementary School, Newtown, Conn. At just after 9:30 a.m., 20-year-old Adam Lanza opened fire inside the K-4th grade school, killing 20 children and six adult before turning a gun on himself. Lanza had also reportedly murdered his mother, Nancy Lanza, before going on his rampage.
Weapons used: Details are still emerging. Initially, police reportedly found two handguns - a Sig Sauer and a Glock - inside the school, and a .223 caliber rifle in a car at the scene. However, authorities now report that all the children killed in the incident were shot multiple times by a semiautomatic rifle.
Guns bought legally?: A federal official tells CBS News that, according to state records, all the weapons Lanza used were bought legally and were registered to his mother.
State gun laws: According to the NRA, Connecticut requires that a person have permit to purchase a handgun, but not rifle. Handguns - but not rifles - must also be licensed. The Brady Campaign calls the state's gun laws "strong."
22-year-old Jacob Tyler Roberts opened fire on holiday shoppers at the Clackamas Town Center in Oregon, killing two people and then himself. These recent shootings were just the latest involving multiple victims in public places this year. From 12 people killed in a movie theater in Colorado in July, to three high school students killed in Ohio in February, such public shooting incidents have been far from rare. Crimesider compiled details on 13 of the 2012 shootings, attemping to determine what kind of weapons were used in each incident, and whether the suspects' firearms were obtained legally. However, our list is not comprehensive.
In July, for example, five people were shot at a basketball tournament in New York City; in March, two people were killed and 12 injured in gunfire outside a North Miami funeral home; and in June, three people died and two others were wounded in a shooting outside a Houston nightclub. Not to mention dozens of victims killed on the streets of Chicago and other cities. We steered away from incidents believed to involve gang violence, identifying situations where armed men (and they are all men) opened fire in a public place, killing and/or maiming those gathered there
1. February 22, 2012 Su Jung Health Sauna, Norcross, Ga. Just days before the Su Jung Health Sauna was set to open, 59-year-old Jeong Soo Paek walked into the spa and shot and killed four people, then turned the gun on himself. According to the Atlanta Journal-Constitution, the impetus for the shooting may have been financial. The paper reported that the victims were Paek's sisters and their husbands, from whom Paek wanted money.
Weapon used: .45 caliber pistol
Gun bought legally?: Yes.
According to Captain Brian Harr of the Norcross Police Department, Paek owned the gun legally, but Harr did not know where he had obtained it. State gun laws: Georgia does not require a background check for the transfer of a firearm between private parties (such as a transaction at a gun show), according to the Law Center for the Prevention of Gun Violence (LCPGV) Ammunition sales are not regulated, nor is the number of firearms purchased at one time limited. According to a report by Mayors Against Illegal Guns, in 2006-2009, Georgia exported more guns used in crimes than any other state.
2. February 27, 2012 Chardon High School, Chardon, Ohio On the morning of Feb. 27, 17-year-old T.J. Lane allegedly walked into the cafeteria of Chardon High School, pulled out a .22 caliber handgun and began shooting at students gathered there before class. Three people were killed and three others wounded. Lane was captured soon after about a mile from the school. Lane has pleaded not guilty to the charges against him. A judge ruled he will be tried as an adult.
Weapon used: .22 caliber pistol
Gun bought legally?: Unclear.
The gun did not belong to Lane and Chardon Police Chief Tim McKenna told Crimesider that reports that Lane got the gun from his grandfather's barn are incorrect. However, due to a gag order in the case, he declined to say whose gun it was and whether it was purchased legally. State gun laws: Ohio requires that a gun owner report if his firearm has been lost or stolen, but does not require background checks for gun sales between private parties, nor does it impose a waiting period on firearm purchases, limit the number of guns that can be purchased at one time, or require gun dealers to obtain a license, according to the LCPGV.
3. March 6, 2012 Tulsa Courthouse, Tulsa, Okla. Three people were wounded when 23-year-old Andrew Joseph Dennehy allegedly opened fire outside the Tulsa County Courthouse on the afternoon of March 6. Dennehy was shot by a police officer at the scene, but not killed. On July 2, Dennehy's defense argued that he had since been examined by a psychiatrist and was suffering from psychotic delusions that render him incompetent to stand trial on charges of shooting with intent to kill and reckless conduct with a firearm.
Weapon used: .357 revolver
Gun bought legally?: No.
Dennehy, whom a court had judged to be delinquent as a juvenile, was prohibited from carrying - let along purchasing - a gun. According to first assistant district attorney Jack Thorpe, there is an ongoing investigation into how Dennehy obtained his weapon. State gun laws: According to the Brady Campaign to Prevent Gun Violence, Oklahoma has among the weakest gun laws in the nations, scoring a 2 of 100 on the organization's rating scale. Oklahoma does not require gun owners to obtain a license or register their firearms. No background check is required for purchase of a firearm between unlicensed individuals, and firearms dealers do not need a state license. In addition, according to the Law Center to Prevent Gun Violence, the state does not require its agencies to add the names of mentally ill individuals to the FBI's National Instant Criminal Background Check System (NICS).
4. March 8, 2012 University of Pittsburgh Medical Center, Pittsburgh, Pa. Around 1:40 p.m. on March 8, police say that John F. Shick, 30, entered the Western Psychiatric Institute and Clinic and began shooting. One person was killed and seven wounded in the attack. Shick, who had reportedly been diagnosed with schizophrenia, was killed in a shootout with police
Weapons used: Shick was armed with two 9mm handguns
Guns bought legally?: No.
According to Allegheny County District Attorney Steve Zappala, Shick bought the weapons he used in New Mexico, which, according to the Law Center to Prevent Gun Violence, does not require a background check for firearm purchases between private individuals. According to an ATF investigation into the incident, Shick's Beretta 9mm was originally issued to a Texas sheriff's deputy in 1994. The deputy pawned the gun in 2000 and it eventually ended up at a gun show in Albequerque in 2010 where it was bought, without paperwork, and then sold via classified ad a year later. John Karnis, the man who bought the gun via the ad, told the ATF that he placed his own ad in the newspaper when he wanted to sell the gun in April 2011. Shick - who the seller described as "quiet and distant" - bought it from him, without paperwork. The second firearm, an Arsenal Inc 9mm, was originally purchased in Albequerque in 1995 by a doctor who then sold it to a dealer, who then sold it to Karnis. Karnis sold both the Arsenal and the Beretta to Shick in April 2011. Zappala said that Shick previously tried to buy a gun in Oregon, but was unable to do so, possibly because he had once been committed to a psychiatric institution there. Because of that, and another such commitment in New York, Shick would not have been able to buy a gun legally in Pennsylvania. Zappala also said that Shick ordered the ammunition he used from Europe over the internet. State gun laws: Pennsylvania requires a background check for private purchase of a firearm, but does not impose a limit on the number of firearms that can be purchased at one time, nor does the state impose a waiting period or regulate ammunition sales, according to the LCPGV.
5. April 2, 2012 Oikos University , Oakland, Calif. On April 2, One L. Goh, 43, allegedly killed seven people and injured three more when he opened fire at the small Christian college in Oakland. Goh had been a nursing student at the college which catered to Korean immigrants, before withdrawing in 2011. He was reportedly angry that the college had not refunded several thousand dollars of his tuition. Goh was arrested after walking into a nearby grocery store and reportedly saying, "I just shot some people." He has pleaded not guilty to seven counts of murder and three counts of attempted murder. Pretrial for the case is scheduled to begin Oct. 1.
Weapons used: A semiautomatic handgun and four magazines of ammunition
Gun bought legally?: Yes.
The gun was purchased in California about two months prior to the shooting, according to the Oakland Police Department. State gun laws: By most accounts, California has the strictest gun laws in the country. According to the LCPGV, the state imposes a 10-day waiting period on all firearm purchases and in 1999 mandated that waiting periods and other restrictions be extended to purchases made at gun shows. California also bans all large capacity ammunition magazines and most assault weapons and 50 caliber rifles. In 2007, California became the first state to require microstamping of handguns. That's the process of imprinting microscopic characters on firearms that will transfer to bullet casings, thus allowing police to trace bullets found at a crime scene without having to recover the weapon itself.
6. May 30, 2012 Cafe Racer, Seattle, Wash. Just before 11 a.m. on May 30, 40-year-old Ian L. Stawicki allegedly started shooting inside a Seattle café near the University of Washington-Seattle campus. Police say Stawicki killed four people inside the café, which was known as a gathering place for local artists and musicians. According to the Seattle Times, police say Stawicki then shot a woman near the Town Hall and stole her SUV. By 4p.m., he had reportedly abandoned the SUV and soon after being surrounded by police, fatally shot himself in the head.
Weapons used: Stawicki was armed with two .45 caliber semiautomatic handguns
Guns bought legally?: Yes.
Stawicki had legally purchased both guns, as well as two others. He also had a valid permit to carry a concealed weapon. In February 2008 Stawicki was charged with four misdemeanor domestic violence counts, but the charges were later dropped. In her statement, his girlfriend at the time wrote that "starting last winter, he became more violent, breaking my things, losing control of his feelings, there's no pattern." In 2010, he was arrested for allegedly assaulting his brother, though those charges were also dropped, according to the Times. State gun laws: Washington State does not require background checks for the purchase of a firearm between private parties, according to the LCPGV. The National Rifle Association reports that the state does not require gun buyers to have a license or permit, nor do Washington State gun owners have to register their guns. The state does, according to the LCPGV, prohibit some individuals with records of domestic violence from owning firearms.
7. June 9, 2012 Auburn University pool party, Auburn, Ala. During an afternoon pool party in an apartment complex near the Auburn University campus, 22-year-old Desmonte Leonard allegedly got in an argument over a woman and then opened fire, killing three people and injuring three others. Leonard eluded police for several days, and finally turned himself in on June 12. Leonard faces three counts of capital murder, two counts of assault have been filed so far, according to the Associated Press.
Weapons used: Unclear. According to Captain Tom Stoffer of the Auburn Police Department, police have found a firearm they believe may have been used in the shooting and have sent it for testing.
Gun bought legally?: Unclear.
State gun laws: Alabama does not require gun owners to register their firearms, nor does the state impose a waiting period or background check on private purchases, according to the LCPGV. The state also does not prohibit the sale or transfer of assault weapons or large capacity ammunition magazines. However, according to the NRA, "it is unlawful for a drug addict, habitual drunkard, or one who has been convicted of a crime of violence to own or possess a handgun." Minors are also not permitted to carry or possess handguns.
8. July 17, 2012 Copper Top bar, Tuscaloosa, Ala. During the early morning hours of July 17, 44-year-old Nathan Van Wilkins allegedly opened fire in a crowded bar near the University of Alabama. Seventeen people were injured in the attack but no one was killed. According to the Tuscaloosa News, less than an hour before he arrived at the bar, Wilkins went to a nearby home and shot at a man inside the house, possibly in a case of mistaken identity. Wilkins has been charged with 18 counts of attempted murder.
Weapon used: Unclear. According to Sgt. Kip Hart of the Tuscaloosa Sheriff's Department, Wilkins' gun has not yet been recovered, but he believes it was likely an "AK-47-type rifle."
Gun bought legally?: Unclear.
State gun laws: Alabama does not require gun owners to register their firearms, nor does the state impose a waiting period or background check on private purchases, according to the LCPGV. The state also does not prohibit the sale or transfer of assault weapons or large capacity ammunition magazines. However, according to the NRA, in Alabama "it is unlawful for a drug addict, habitual drunkard, or one who has been convicted of a crime of violence to own or possess a handgun." Minors are also not permitted to carry or possess handguns.
9. July 20, 2012 Century 16 movie theater, Aurora, Colo. Just after midnight on July 20, police say James Holmes, dressed in black and sporting nearly head-to-toe tactical garb, set off some sort of smoke bomb inside Theater 9 of the Century 16 movie theater. Holmes allegedly began shooting at the audience, who was there to see a premiere of the new Batman movie, "The Dark Knight Rises." Twelve people were killed, 58 others injured, several of whom are still hospitalized. Holmes surrendered to police soon after the massacre in the parking lot behind the theater. His apartment was allegedly "booby-trapped," rigged with what the Aurora police chief described as "incendiary and chemical" devices which authorities disabled or detonated. Holmes is under investigation for first-degree murder and will appear in court on July 31.
Weapons used: Police say Holmes used a semiautomatic AR-15 rifle, a shotgun and a .40 caliber Glock handgun
Guns bought legally?: Yes.
According to Aurora Police Chief Daniel Oates, all three of the guns used in the incident, plus a second Glock allegedly found in Holmes' car, were purchased legally in the state of Colorado. In the weeks leading up to the incident, police say Holmes had purchased 6,000 rounds of ammunition over the internet. State gun laws: Colorado imposes no waiting period to purchase a firearm, nor does it impose a limit on the number of firearms that can be purchased at one time, according to the LCPGV. The state requires mentally ill individuals who are deemed ineligible for purchasing a firearm to be reported to the federal NICS database. In 2000, in the wake of the Columbine High School massacre, the state used a ballot initiative to close the so-called "gun show loophole," in which private sales do not require a background check. However, the state does not prohibit a person from purchasing assault weapons or large capacity magazines. Colorado gun owners do not have to obtain licenses, register their guns, or report lost or stolen guns.
10. August 5, 2012 Sikh Temple of Wisconsin, Oak Creek, Wisc. As worshippers prayed and meditated, 40-year-old Wade Michael Page walked into the temple and opened fire, killing six. Wade, who was reportedly a white supremacist, was killed in a shoot-out with police.
Weapons used: 9mm handgun
Guns bought legally?: Yes.
State gun laws: According to the National Rifle Association, Wisconsin requires no background check nor a license or permit to purchase or carry a firearm.
11. October 21, 2012 Azana Day Spa, Brookfield., Wisc. Radcliffe Franklin Haughton, 45, opened fire in a suburban day spa, killing his wife, Zina Haughton, and two other women, and injuring four others before killing himself. In a written request for a restraining order filed Oct. 8, Zina Haughton said her husband was convinced she was cheating on him and that aside from the acid threat he also vowed to burn her and her family with gas. He said he would kill her if she ever left him or called the police, according to the court papers obtained Monday by The Associated Press.
Weapons used: .40 caliber semiautomatic handgun Guns bought legally?:
Unclear.
State gun laws: According to the NRA, Wisconsin requires no background check nor a license or permit to purchase or carry a firearm.
12. December 11, 2012 Clackamas Town Center, Clackamas, Ore. Jacob Tyler Roberts, 22, walked into the mall wearing a hockey-style mask and an ammunition-packed vest and opened fire, killing two people and then himself.
Weapons used: AR-15 rifle
Guns bought legally?: Not by Roberts.
Police say Roberts had stolen the weapon from someone he knew. State gun laws: According to the Brady Campaign, Oregon requires background checks for gun sales at gun shows, but does no require a state license to possess a handgun or handgun registration. The state also does not require firearm owners to report a stolen weapon.
13. December 14, 2012 Sandy Hook Elementary School, Newtown, Conn. At just after 9:30 a.m., 20-year-old Adam Lanza opened fire inside the K-4th grade school, killing 20 children and six adult before turning a gun on himself. Lanza had also reportedly murdered his mother, Nancy Lanza, before going on his rampage.
Weapons used: Details are still emerging. Initially, police reportedly found two handguns - a Sig Sauer and a Glock - inside the school, and a .223 caliber rifle in a car at the scene. However, authorities now report that all the children killed in the incident were shot multiple times by a semiautomatic rifle.
Guns bought legally?: A federal official tells CBS News that, according to state records, all the weapons Lanza used were bought legally and were registered to his mother.
State gun laws: According to the NRA, Connecticut requires that a person have permit to purchase a handgun, but not rifle. Handguns - but not rifles - must also be licensed. The Brady Campaign calls the state's gun laws "strong."
Monday 10 December 2012
What Its Like Being Bullied
I was bullied from the age of 9 years till at least my 20th birthday. Yes,
even at 20 I was still being picked on. Why? Because I am gay. I was never open
about being gay, I didn't have to be. Everyone knew it. Not because I sounded
camp, or acted camp. Or even dressed camp. Nope, it was simple. I never had a
girlfriend.. That was it.. That was the reason they knew.
It all started when I was 9 years old. I went to a boarding school. At 9 years old I was placed in the middle of hell in the boarding school lifestyle. Nothing prepared me for what was in store for me. Ok, it started out fine. I had a few months where I had to settle into the life. But I never really did. I started to “know” what I was. Well, I didn’t actually know.. I just knew something was “different” I did not seem interested in girls, I didn’t seem interested in hearing the “talk” about girls and relationships and all the bullshit. I was more interested in my best mate, Douglas.
In boarding school.. You all should know that you actually do sleep there don’t you? It’s not like normal school where you can go home at night and hide yourself away into your bedroom and play with yourself. This was eat, sleep, wank, pray, work, dress, shower, shit, cry and laugh with the same people day in day out for months at a time. If you farted in assembly.. You not only had the teasing in school.. But at night as well.. In the bathroom, in the freaking breakfast meal times. There was nothing that nobody knew about me nor me them. I knew who cried at night, who wanked, who snored, who farted, who hugs a teddy bear and kisses it goodnight, I know who has nightmares and who sleep walks.. That’s how close it was in boarding school.
So, as a gay.. With hormones going wild.. You can understand my frustration can’t you?.. I mean.. It would have been better putting me in the girl’s dorm and sleep with the girls.. But, there would be a problem I would be raped at night or something. Trust me, the girls had nothing to fear from me.. You get me! But.. As rules have it.. I was placed in a dormitory full of boys (30 to be exact) and I was so.. What’s the word for it?.. Embarrassed? Shocked? Ashamed? Fearful of letting one slip? Afraid of showing some movement downstairs? .. That I became so introverted and secluded from the rest of the school.. I was a 100% pure bred LONER! Not that I had trouble making friends.. I had loads of friends.. Some I still talk to even today.. But.. It was me who stopped me from making friends.. I stopped myself to prevent me giving away that deep dark secret… being GAY!
So, me, the loner, the one who sits quiet in the corner, the one who is afraid of everyone, had to come up with a “reason” to stop people talking to me. I know.. I will become the biggest bitch in the UK. Fuck you all, you fuckers! I will make sure I am un liked. That way. I won’t slip up and then face years and forever of bullying because I managed to get a hard on in just the wrong place and time. Yeah.. That was it. That’s how I can do it. That’s how I was at 9 years of age. Eventually though.. I did start talking to people and I did make 2 friends. Douglas and Barry. Two dear friends of mine even today. Nope, they are not gay.. They are completely normal. The reason why I made such good friends? They were on the same level as me. We shared so many character traits that we just clicked.. And with my secret.. I could hide amongst them soo fucking well.. Hey.. They walked around with their hands in their pants.. It was “a cool thing”.. Me.. I could do the same.. It was a “hide that stiffy thing”.
So then the bulling started. It started off at first with comments like.. “Why ain’t you got a girlfriend?” “Why do you not shower with us?” (Communal showers) “Why don’t you go out with her?” and every time I made my excuses.. It started out with “You’re fridged” “You are afraid” “You are weird” then it soon developed into… “Are you gay?” or words to that effect.. And I kept saying no.. But they just didn’t believe me.
The day that it turned physical is a day I will never forget. I was at boarding school.. I was now 12 years old. And already I was the “Freak” of the school. I was called that because of the following.
I was 90% a Loner.. Only ever talking to two people for 5 mins a day, and that was just because we sat next to each other.
I was the kid who (even after several offers from various girls) never kissed or touched a girl intimately
I was the kid who sat in the corner and had my head in my lap all the time.
I was the kid who purposefully tried showering and bathing alone and even skipping a shower to avoid uncontrollable reactions in my shorts.
I was the one who only ever liked being beside another boy and when a girl stood next to me I walked away
I was the kid who couldn’t do sports very well
So, I was the freak. The gaybo, the queer, the homo, the loner. I was the boy who only ever really talked to my school form teacher (tutor) Mrs. Mandy. She was my mother in school. She knew things about me that even I didn’t. And I think she knew what secret I was hiding. And she was the best teacher in the whole world. She used to bring me cookies and give me sweets and hug me and smile when I walked past and always always asked me if I was ok and if I needed anything and that I could talk anytime if I wanted.
Well.. That day.. I was 12 and the school scout group was on their way to a scout camp. I was present as well, seeing how I was in the scouts. Well.. anyways, the camp was called Linnet Clough… just outside Manchester. It’s a regular campsite for my boarding school. Anyways.. It was some sort of county scout camp.. Long story short.. We set up the patrol tent.. An 8 man tent that my patrol was going to sleep in.. I did insist on a separate tent.. But the scout master insisted back that I stop being such a pussy. Yeah.. Those exact words. So. I looked on a Douglas and Barry and several other members of my patrol.. The “Tigers” and then at the sleeping arrangements.. They had already set out their sleeping bags.. I sat there on my rucksack and looked on in horror.. Yeah sure.. I WANTED to sleep that close to someone I actually wanted sex with.. But not now, not as a kid. Not as someone who was turned on by a gnat landing on my cock.. Figure of speech .. I wasn’t actually turned on by a gnat.. What I mean is.. The slightest touch and up I came. I couldn’t help it.. My hormones were going fucking crazy. Sure, all boys went through that.. But at least they got hard and they blamed it on some girl and had the permission to express his love and hard on with a wank and screaming out that girls name.. Me.. Who was I getting hard over? .. Yeah.. The ones watching me with mouths open in shock… FAGGOT! (Even though they probably didn’t even know or suspect or care)
So, the scout master comes over.. “Why are you sat there like a dweeb?! Up pack your ruck sac!” I looked around at the scout master staring at me as I was miles away watching Douglas. I stood up. I walked over to the tent.. And Douglas said to me.. “Here, you can sleep here” I looked at Douglas and found that he actually “Reserved” a place for me. Oh, very nice of you.. Asshole I was thinking. I was more than happy sleeping at the end.. And when people were asleep, I would quietly roll out the door and sleep under the stars. But now.. I am in the middle of all these boys.. All probably wanting to snuggle up at night.. I was sooo in denial about my true feelings.. Any normal gay would say fuck yeah.. But me.. I was fuck no!
So the night came. And we were all in our sleeping bags.. And the “talk” started. You know.. Hormonal boys talk.. Probably gonna lead to a “cum in the cup race” if you don’t know what that is.. Don’t ask.. But if you must know.. It’s the most gay thing non gay boys do and will always say they are not gay for doing it when in actual fact.. Its soo fucking gay it’s unreal.. Basically.. you all wank into a cup in a circle and the last one to “cum” or “orgasm” has to either drink the cup filled with semen or what ever they could produce OR face a forfeit.
Guess what.. That’s what happened.. Now.. Long story short.. I lost. I did not loose on purpose.. Although that’s what was eventually suggested.. I lost because I was so well trained in the art of NOT being gay and getting all emotional about masturbating and shit.. Even though I really wanted to.. That I was too nervous or what ever to even attempt to be first.. Besides.. Whilst they all wanked over a grotty porn mag with big tits.. I had nothing to wank over apart from 10 boys hanging out in front of me.. And I could hardly look could I? I could hardly stare at them and get myself off.. So.. I had to wank with nothing to stimulate.. So.. Well.. I failed to produce.
Now.. This is where I have to stop you.. You are probably thinking.. Gay.. Yep, cup full of cum.. Yep… would drink it without any hesitation…. WRONG.. I may be gay but then, I did not fancy some straight boys cum in my mouth.. It was like snot .. Slime.. What ever disgusting thing it was.. It was gross.. I refused to put it in my mouth.. They tried to make me.. They held me down and poured it into my mouth.. I tried to scream but was too busy gagging. “You fucking pussy” they said.. Douglas tried backing me up.. “Leave him alone” then it came, “Faggot” said with anger in his voice. It was this kid called Paul. I was laid down on the sleeping bags.. Still with my pants down.. Still with the cum over my face. Almost crying. Douglas.. He stepped in and said.. “Leave him alone” and basically moved between me and Paul. Then they started fighting.. Ok.. Not really fighting.. More like.. Paul had him on his ass quickly and said don’t fucking dare. Douglas was not a fighter. He wasn’t tough. And he was definitely not gay. But Paul.. Was team captain for the U13’s rugby team and swimming team.. He was what the yanks would call.. A Jock.. A sports bred kid.. All muscle and no brains. It was 8 to 2.. Me and Douglas were out numbered.
So, they all crowded me and started taunting me. To cut to the facts.. And not to go too deep into it.. I was stripped.. Slapped and then held down whilst they spat on me. Then, one of the other boys said.. Put the two faggots together. I was forced to lie on top of Douglas and although no actual rape occurred.. I was made to simulate having sex with him. Including being forced to do the motions on Douglas. All whilst they laughed and joked and tormented me and Douglas.
After that, I left the scout group. I hardly ever talked to Douglas again, I hardly ever talked to anyone again. In fact. From then, it was 10 years since I spoke to Douglas again on a social net working site.. And even then.. We never really talked.. Just the kind hello how are you? And that’s it. I eventually left that school and was taken to another boarding school at 13 years of age. By now, I was so fucked up in the head and afraid of everything and traumatized that I started to not care anymore.
In the new school.. (Which I didn’t stay all that long) I got into 26 fights, all of which they started on me for being gay. By now, I couldn’t keep it secret.. It was obvious that I was gay.. Even though I never even said I was. And I was in one fight standing up for a kid who was probably also gay.. He was being bullied one time and I stepped in and defended him.. Timothy was his name. I got my ass kicked.. And never even got a thank you for helping timothy out. I was then moved from that school to a normal comprehensive. Where by now, I was totally unable to make any friends. The only friendship I could make now, at the age of 14, was with boys who were 11 to 12 years old. Only because they would never give me any shit and would never try to bully me. But this only caused further bullying by my own age group and above.
One time in PE at this new school. I tried skipping a shower afterwards.. But was caught by the teacher and forced to take a shower. And to this day, I regret it.. The inevitable happened.. I got a hard on in the shower. It just happened.. I couldn’t help it. Well.. Instantly.. The whole school knew now.. And I was subject to a daily bloody nose, I think I cracked a rib when I was pushed down the stairs in the school during lunch break.. I was constantly pushed around, punched, spat at. I had my stuff stolen away from me that I started resorting to not taking any lunch with me nor money for lunch. And eventually.. I skived school almost every other day. By the time I was 15, I had already skived off at least 80% of the year. And now, the school was complaining about my absence. And although I had letters home.. I could no longer keep that hidden from my dad as they stated that they were going to do a home visit.
Time for drastic action.. I ran away. I went 200 miles south to my mum’s house.. (Parents divorced) and I stated for my safety I needed to stay with her from now on. After a few too’s and fro’s I was eventually allowed to stay with my mum. By now I had missed so much school.. That I was placed 2 years back in my new school at my mums.. I was 16 going on 17.. And just starting my GCSE’s.. Which, if you don’t know.. By 16 – 17.. I should have completed them. So.. Gee.. Now I am a 16 year old in a class full of 14 year olds.. How humiliating.. Now, you may think.. That’s wrong.. That shouldn’t happen.. How the fuck did the school agree to that?.. Well.. With a mother who is a school governor.. You can get the idea now.
So, me, an old person in the school yeah? No chance of bullying now yeah? No one will fuck with someone who is 2 years older than them yeah?... wrong.. All it means now is I no longer get harassed by one person.. But now a gang of them and their older brothers as well.
I always wondered how they knew. I never told them a damn thing. I never let it slip.. I don’t sound gay.. I don’t even dress gay.. I don’t show anyone I am gay.. Most of the people I know now and some back then even are shocked to know I am gay.. Never! No way! That’s what they say.. But back then it was different.. They somehow knew.. Or was it.. It wasn’t anti gay bullying.. It was something else? Naa.. It was anti gay. I know it was. Being called faggot and queer and homo and all the other shit they came out with.. Yeah.. It was anti gay bullying.. And the only reason why I think they did it.. Was the fact I never had a girlfriend. And they all did. I never did what they did on a Friday night.. I was more comfortable with a single friend than I was with a girl. Besides which, I think I only ever had 3 friends then and everyone else was just against me.
I know I am being vague here about this “What’s it like being bullied” .. but its hard to talk about and most I have forgotten about. Or I don’t wish to talk about it at this moment in time. But I will tell you basically how I felt all my childhood. Leaving out what actually happened..
I would wake up in the morning and not want to get out of bed nor face the world. I would always find an excuse to not do something. And skiving was a main part of my childhood when I could get away with it. In boarding school I had no choice but to attend school. But in normal school I tried to stay away as much as I could. When I could. When I did go out of the house. To school or to the shops or to a mates house. I was always on the look out for anyone who would possibly hurt me. I hated walking along the path and seeing a group of 3 or more boys walking towards me. I hated going into school and having the “greeting party” there waiting for me. I hated the break times when I would have to run (literally) to safety of the library or the toilets before being spotted by the bullies.
I hated the fact that after school, my bike was stolen all the time, or moved. And that not 10 feet out of the school gates I was harassed and punched by the greeting party. I hated the fact I couldn’t go to the fun fair for fear of being beaten up. I hated the fact that I couldn’t even go to the shop without meeting someone and getting my ass kicked. I hated the fact that I have had stones thrown at me and knives pulled out on me and leather belts wrapped around my back and legs. I hated the fact that I saw graffiti around the school with my name on it saying I was gay, homo, faggot, queer, bent, cock sucker, fairy, princess. And I hated the death threats (even though none of them were ever attempted on me). I hated the way that I had to force myself to be a loner and stay away from society. I hated not being able to go to the pub, when I was 18 because of the fear of being beaten up. I hated the fact that even at 17 – 19.. I felt it was important that I stayed home and locked myself away in my bedroom.
I hated not having loads of friends. I hated hearing the police could “do nothing about it”. I hated the fact that one time a large gang harassed my mum (at the time almost in her 60’s) at her own doorstep, trying to get me outside so they could beat me up in front of her. I hated the fact that I had to give up jobs because the anti gay comments were making me so angry that I would lose my job if I said what I really wanted to say to them. I hated the fact that one time I was “sent” a girl around to my house to ask me out and then tell me that if I didn’t go outside with her and make out.. I would be beaten up the next day at school. Only to then see a group of twats looking over at us and laughing. I hated the letters sent to me telling me to kill myself. I hated the emails. The comments in the street about me being gay and that I should leave the town for ever. And I hate the fact that when I did find a friend that they too were bullied to the point that they were forced to break the friendship from me for fear of their own life. I hated the fact that every time I tried telling someone, they were not interested, didn’t care, didn’t listen, didn’t try hard enough to stop it, or basically thought I was lying.
Now, I am out as a gay.. Only just.. At aged 30 something. And all of a sudden.. Everyone wants to be my friend and are totally cool with it. Some say.. wow, I never knew.. Some say don’t ever talk to me again.. Some have totally disowned me.. Some have become friends with me and are asking me how come I never said anything before.. It’s simply put.. The world around me are a bunch of hypocrites and liars.. And people who pretended they never knew or didn’t suspect.. And some people are so gay friendly that it beggars belief that they never stood up for me back then. Yeah, I have had my ups and downs.. pain and misery.. happy and joyful times. But is it any wonder I am the way I am today?
It all started when I was 9 years old. I went to a boarding school. At 9 years old I was placed in the middle of hell in the boarding school lifestyle. Nothing prepared me for what was in store for me. Ok, it started out fine. I had a few months where I had to settle into the life. But I never really did. I started to “know” what I was. Well, I didn’t actually know.. I just knew something was “different” I did not seem interested in girls, I didn’t seem interested in hearing the “talk” about girls and relationships and all the bullshit. I was more interested in my best mate, Douglas.
In boarding school.. You all should know that you actually do sleep there don’t you? It’s not like normal school where you can go home at night and hide yourself away into your bedroom and play with yourself. This was eat, sleep, wank, pray, work, dress, shower, shit, cry and laugh with the same people day in day out for months at a time. If you farted in assembly.. You not only had the teasing in school.. But at night as well.. In the bathroom, in the freaking breakfast meal times. There was nothing that nobody knew about me nor me them. I knew who cried at night, who wanked, who snored, who farted, who hugs a teddy bear and kisses it goodnight, I know who has nightmares and who sleep walks.. That’s how close it was in boarding school.
So, as a gay.. With hormones going wild.. You can understand my frustration can’t you?.. I mean.. It would have been better putting me in the girl’s dorm and sleep with the girls.. But, there would be a problem I would be raped at night or something. Trust me, the girls had nothing to fear from me.. You get me! But.. As rules have it.. I was placed in a dormitory full of boys (30 to be exact) and I was so.. What’s the word for it?.. Embarrassed? Shocked? Ashamed? Fearful of letting one slip? Afraid of showing some movement downstairs? .. That I became so introverted and secluded from the rest of the school.. I was a 100% pure bred LONER! Not that I had trouble making friends.. I had loads of friends.. Some I still talk to even today.. But.. It was me who stopped me from making friends.. I stopped myself to prevent me giving away that deep dark secret… being GAY!
So, me, the loner, the one who sits quiet in the corner, the one who is afraid of everyone, had to come up with a “reason” to stop people talking to me. I know.. I will become the biggest bitch in the UK. Fuck you all, you fuckers! I will make sure I am un liked. That way. I won’t slip up and then face years and forever of bullying because I managed to get a hard on in just the wrong place and time. Yeah.. That was it. That’s how I can do it. That’s how I was at 9 years of age. Eventually though.. I did start talking to people and I did make 2 friends. Douglas and Barry. Two dear friends of mine even today. Nope, they are not gay.. They are completely normal. The reason why I made such good friends? They were on the same level as me. We shared so many character traits that we just clicked.. And with my secret.. I could hide amongst them soo fucking well.. Hey.. They walked around with their hands in their pants.. It was “a cool thing”.. Me.. I could do the same.. It was a “hide that stiffy thing”.
So then the bulling started. It started off at first with comments like.. “Why ain’t you got a girlfriend?” “Why do you not shower with us?” (Communal showers) “Why don’t you go out with her?” and every time I made my excuses.. It started out with “You’re fridged” “You are afraid” “You are weird” then it soon developed into… “Are you gay?” or words to that effect.. And I kept saying no.. But they just didn’t believe me.
The day that it turned physical is a day I will never forget. I was at boarding school.. I was now 12 years old. And already I was the “Freak” of the school. I was called that because of the following.
I was 90% a Loner.. Only ever talking to two people for 5 mins a day, and that was just because we sat next to each other.
I was the kid who (even after several offers from various girls) never kissed or touched a girl intimately
I was the kid who sat in the corner and had my head in my lap all the time.
I was the kid who purposefully tried showering and bathing alone and even skipping a shower to avoid uncontrollable reactions in my shorts.
I was the one who only ever liked being beside another boy and when a girl stood next to me I walked away
I was the kid who couldn’t do sports very well
So, I was the freak. The gaybo, the queer, the homo, the loner. I was the boy who only ever really talked to my school form teacher (tutor) Mrs. Mandy. She was my mother in school. She knew things about me that even I didn’t. And I think she knew what secret I was hiding. And she was the best teacher in the whole world. She used to bring me cookies and give me sweets and hug me and smile when I walked past and always always asked me if I was ok and if I needed anything and that I could talk anytime if I wanted.
Well.. That day.. I was 12 and the school scout group was on their way to a scout camp. I was present as well, seeing how I was in the scouts. Well.. anyways, the camp was called Linnet Clough… just outside Manchester. It’s a regular campsite for my boarding school. Anyways.. It was some sort of county scout camp.. Long story short.. We set up the patrol tent.. An 8 man tent that my patrol was going to sleep in.. I did insist on a separate tent.. But the scout master insisted back that I stop being such a pussy. Yeah.. Those exact words. So. I looked on a Douglas and Barry and several other members of my patrol.. The “Tigers” and then at the sleeping arrangements.. They had already set out their sleeping bags.. I sat there on my rucksack and looked on in horror.. Yeah sure.. I WANTED to sleep that close to someone I actually wanted sex with.. But not now, not as a kid. Not as someone who was turned on by a gnat landing on my cock.. Figure of speech .. I wasn’t actually turned on by a gnat.. What I mean is.. The slightest touch and up I came. I couldn’t help it.. My hormones were going fucking crazy. Sure, all boys went through that.. But at least they got hard and they blamed it on some girl and had the permission to express his love and hard on with a wank and screaming out that girls name.. Me.. Who was I getting hard over? .. Yeah.. The ones watching me with mouths open in shock… FAGGOT! (Even though they probably didn’t even know or suspect or care)
So, the scout master comes over.. “Why are you sat there like a dweeb?! Up pack your ruck sac!” I looked around at the scout master staring at me as I was miles away watching Douglas. I stood up. I walked over to the tent.. And Douglas said to me.. “Here, you can sleep here” I looked at Douglas and found that he actually “Reserved” a place for me. Oh, very nice of you.. Asshole I was thinking. I was more than happy sleeping at the end.. And when people were asleep, I would quietly roll out the door and sleep under the stars. But now.. I am in the middle of all these boys.. All probably wanting to snuggle up at night.. I was sooo in denial about my true feelings.. Any normal gay would say fuck yeah.. But me.. I was fuck no!
So the night came. And we were all in our sleeping bags.. And the “talk” started. You know.. Hormonal boys talk.. Probably gonna lead to a “cum in the cup race” if you don’t know what that is.. Don’t ask.. But if you must know.. It’s the most gay thing non gay boys do and will always say they are not gay for doing it when in actual fact.. Its soo fucking gay it’s unreal.. Basically.. you all wank into a cup in a circle and the last one to “cum” or “orgasm” has to either drink the cup filled with semen or what ever they could produce OR face a forfeit.
Guess what.. That’s what happened.. Now.. Long story short.. I lost. I did not loose on purpose.. Although that’s what was eventually suggested.. I lost because I was so well trained in the art of NOT being gay and getting all emotional about masturbating and shit.. Even though I really wanted to.. That I was too nervous or what ever to even attempt to be first.. Besides.. Whilst they all wanked over a grotty porn mag with big tits.. I had nothing to wank over apart from 10 boys hanging out in front of me.. And I could hardly look could I? I could hardly stare at them and get myself off.. So.. I had to wank with nothing to stimulate.. So.. Well.. I failed to produce.
Now.. This is where I have to stop you.. You are probably thinking.. Gay.. Yep, cup full of cum.. Yep… would drink it without any hesitation…. WRONG.. I may be gay but then, I did not fancy some straight boys cum in my mouth.. It was like snot .. Slime.. What ever disgusting thing it was.. It was gross.. I refused to put it in my mouth.. They tried to make me.. They held me down and poured it into my mouth.. I tried to scream but was too busy gagging. “You fucking pussy” they said.. Douglas tried backing me up.. “Leave him alone” then it came, “Faggot” said with anger in his voice. It was this kid called Paul. I was laid down on the sleeping bags.. Still with my pants down.. Still with the cum over my face. Almost crying. Douglas.. He stepped in and said.. “Leave him alone” and basically moved between me and Paul. Then they started fighting.. Ok.. Not really fighting.. More like.. Paul had him on his ass quickly and said don’t fucking dare. Douglas was not a fighter. He wasn’t tough. And he was definitely not gay. But Paul.. Was team captain for the U13’s rugby team and swimming team.. He was what the yanks would call.. A Jock.. A sports bred kid.. All muscle and no brains. It was 8 to 2.. Me and Douglas were out numbered.
So, they all crowded me and started taunting me. To cut to the facts.. And not to go too deep into it.. I was stripped.. Slapped and then held down whilst they spat on me. Then, one of the other boys said.. Put the two faggots together. I was forced to lie on top of Douglas and although no actual rape occurred.. I was made to simulate having sex with him. Including being forced to do the motions on Douglas. All whilst they laughed and joked and tormented me and Douglas.
After that, I left the scout group. I hardly ever talked to Douglas again, I hardly ever talked to anyone again. In fact. From then, it was 10 years since I spoke to Douglas again on a social net working site.. And even then.. We never really talked.. Just the kind hello how are you? And that’s it. I eventually left that school and was taken to another boarding school at 13 years of age. By now, I was so fucked up in the head and afraid of everything and traumatized that I started to not care anymore.
In the new school.. (Which I didn’t stay all that long) I got into 26 fights, all of which they started on me for being gay. By now, I couldn’t keep it secret.. It was obvious that I was gay.. Even though I never even said I was. And I was in one fight standing up for a kid who was probably also gay.. He was being bullied one time and I stepped in and defended him.. Timothy was his name. I got my ass kicked.. And never even got a thank you for helping timothy out. I was then moved from that school to a normal comprehensive. Where by now, I was totally unable to make any friends. The only friendship I could make now, at the age of 14, was with boys who were 11 to 12 years old. Only because they would never give me any shit and would never try to bully me. But this only caused further bullying by my own age group and above.
One time in PE at this new school. I tried skipping a shower afterwards.. But was caught by the teacher and forced to take a shower. And to this day, I regret it.. The inevitable happened.. I got a hard on in the shower. It just happened.. I couldn’t help it. Well.. Instantly.. The whole school knew now.. And I was subject to a daily bloody nose, I think I cracked a rib when I was pushed down the stairs in the school during lunch break.. I was constantly pushed around, punched, spat at. I had my stuff stolen away from me that I started resorting to not taking any lunch with me nor money for lunch. And eventually.. I skived school almost every other day. By the time I was 15, I had already skived off at least 80% of the year. And now, the school was complaining about my absence. And although I had letters home.. I could no longer keep that hidden from my dad as they stated that they were going to do a home visit.
Time for drastic action.. I ran away. I went 200 miles south to my mum’s house.. (Parents divorced) and I stated for my safety I needed to stay with her from now on. After a few too’s and fro’s I was eventually allowed to stay with my mum. By now I had missed so much school.. That I was placed 2 years back in my new school at my mums.. I was 16 going on 17.. And just starting my GCSE’s.. Which, if you don’t know.. By 16 – 17.. I should have completed them. So.. Gee.. Now I am a 16 year old in a class full of 14 year olds.. How humiliating.. Now, you may think.. That’s wrong.. That shouldn’t happen.. How the fuck did the school agree to that?.. Well.. With a mother who is a school governor.. You can get the idea now.
So, me, an old person in the school yeah? No chance of bullying now yeah? No one will fuck with someone who is 2 years older than them yeah?... wrong.. All it means now is I no longer get harassed by one person.. But now a gang of them and their older brothers as well.
I always wondered how they knew. I never told them a damn thing. I never let it slip.. I don’t sound gay.. I don’t even dress gay.. I don’t show anyone I am gay.. Most of the people I know now and some back then even are shocked to know I am gay.. Never! No way! That’s what they say.. But back then it was different.. They somehow knew.. Or was it.. It wasn’t anti gay bullying.. It was something else? Naa.. It was anti gay. I know it was. Being called faggot and queer and homo and all the other shit they came out with.. Yeah.. It was anti gay bullying.. And the only reason why I think they did it.. Was the fact I never had a girlfriend. And they all did. I never did what they did on a Friday night.. I was more comfortable with a single friend than I was with a girl. Besides which, I think I only ever had 3 friends then and everyone else was just against me.
I know I am being vague here about this “What’s it like being bullied” .. but its hard to talk about and most I have forgotten about. Or I don’t wish to talk about it at this moment in time. But I will tell you basically how I felt all my childhood. Leaving out what actually happened..
I would wake up in the morning and not want to get out of bed nor face the world. I would always find an excuse to not do something. And skiving was a main part of my childhood when I could get away with it. In boarding school I had no choice but to attend school. But in normal school I tried to stay away as much as I could. When I could. When I did go out of the house. To school or to the shops or to a mates house. I was always on the look out for anyone who would possibly hurt me. I hated walking along the path and seeing a group of 3 or more boys walking towards me. I hated going into school and having the “greeting party” there waiting for me. I hated the break times when I would have to run (literally) to safety of the library or the toilets before being spotted by the bullies.
I hated the fact that after school, my bike was stolen all the time, or moved. And that not 10 feet out of the school gates I was harassed and punched by the greeting party. I hated the fact I couldn’t go to the fun fair for fear of being beaten up. I hated the fact that I couldn’t even go to the shop without meeting someone and getting my ass kicked. I hated the fact that I have had stones thrown at me and knives pulled out on me and leather belts wrapped around my back and legs. I hated the fact that I saw graffiti around the school with my name on it saying I was gay, homo, faggot, queer, bent, cock sucker, fairy, princess. And I hated the death threats (even though none of them were ever attempted on me). I hated the way that I had to force myself to be a loner and stay away from society. I hated not being able to go to the pub, when I was 18 because of the fear of being beaten up. I hated the fact that even at 17 – 19.. I felt it was important that I stayed home and locked myself away in my bedroom.
I hated not having loads of friends. I hated hearing the police could “do nothing about it”. I hated the fact that one time a large gang harassed my mum (at the time almost in her 60’s) at her own doorstep, trying to get me outside so they could beat me up in front of her. I hated the fact that I had to give up jobs because the anti gay comments were making me so angry that I would lose my job if I said what I really wanted to say to them. I hated the fact that one time I was “sent” a girl around to my house to ask me out and then tell me that if I didn’t go outside with her and make out.. I would be beaten up the next day at school. Only to then see a group of twats looking over at us and laughing. I hated the letters sent to me telling me to kill myself. I hated the emails. The comments in the street about me being gay and that I should leave the town for ever. And I hate the fact that when I did find a friend that they too were bullied to the point that they were forced to break the friendship from me for fear of their own life. I hated the fact that every time I tried telling someone, they were not interested, didn’t care, didn’t listen, didn’t try hard enough to stop it, or basically thought I was lying.
Now, I am out as a gay.. Only just.. At aged 30 something. And all of a sudden.. Everyone wants to be my friend and are totally cool with it. Some say.. wow, I never knew.. Some say don’t ever talk to me again.. Some have totally disowned me.. Some have become friends with me and are asking me how come I never said anything before.. It’s simply put.. The world around me are a bunch of hypocrites and liars.. And people who pretended they never knew or didn’t suspect.. And some people are so gay friendly that it beggars belief that they never stood up for me back then. Yeah, I have had my ups and downs.. pain and misery.. happy and joyful times. But is it any wonder I am the way I am today?
14-Year Old Gay Iowa Teen Bullied To Death – Report
A 14-year old gay teen died by suicide Saturday in Primghar, Iowa, after coming out as gay and being bullied for months, according to a report. The Eldridge Funeral Home lists a short obituary
for Kenneth James Weishuhn Jr., stating Kenneth J. Weishuhn Jr. passed
away on Sunday, April 15. Primghar, Iowa is a small town of about 909,
according to the 2010 census.
One entry notes, “Its sad to see how people cannot just see past a persons identity and just see them as a human,” while another reads, “You took his happiness away from him..,” and another, “No one deserves to be bullied! My sympathies to the family and friends of Kenneth! And to the kids that bullied him hope you sleep okay knowing that you drove a young man to an early fate, you should be ashamed of yourself!”
A Facebook page which appears to be that of the same Kenneth James Weishuhn lists his nickname as Rodney. The last entry was March 30. A tribute video, below, was published to YouTube yesterday.
There’s nothing wrong with you. There’s a lot wrong with the world you live in.To which Weishuhn added, “I hope so.”
Another image reads, “Never be bullied into silence.”
Saturday 8 December 2012
Why?
So many stories of gay teens comitting suicide
because of bullying. So many stories in the news about how, in the 21st
century, gay marriage is STILL not accepted. So many people who are two
faced bastards that say "oh, i am not against them" .. yet.. they are
quick to bully and harass and torment anyone who says they are gay.
Religion even turns thier backs on us.. even though a lot of gay's are
religious. You all hate us soo much.. but you dont even know why?
I mean, lets face it. What the fuck have we done to you to get you so angry at us? Are gay men so violent and anti social and hating of everything you do? Do we not keep our love secret and hidden away from you? Do we make your day so terrible that you need to attack us? Am i so bad that you can't even keep a friendship going?
And what of these people that bully someone into suicide? if "gay" wasn't even mentioned.. you would be stringing the little fuckers up in court and handing out tough jail time.. yet.. as soon as gay is mentioned, you barely do anything at all.
You paranoid, small minded fuckers who seem to think that you are better than us need to learn just one thing.. we are human too. We feel pain, worry, fear, sorrow, love, happiness, joy, anger, pride.. and every other emotion.. just like you. our blood is still red.
We were born this way, its not something we just woke up one day and said.. hey, you know what.. thats a good idea!.. we were made this way through genetics. Its not our fault. We do not blame you for needing hetrosexual love do we? we do not beat you guys into suicide and fear. We do not target you.
So here is my message to you guys out there.. be it, government, religious leaders, politicians, coppers, doctors, teachers, parents, dumb assed kids in the play ground, twats with the cardboard plaques in USA, naive followers of some fucked up religion (thinking that god was against homosexuality.. when in fact.. it was NEVER mentioned in the bible at all).. to all those who think that they can get away with fag beatings and queer bashing.. every single one of you fascist cunts...
One day, we will fight back.. and we will win.. we are everywhere..
And to those being bullied.. report it, tell anyone about it.. do what ever it takes to not suffer in silence. and if you feel that bad that you have to do something aweful to yourself.. stop and get help.. there are people out there who can help you escape the bullying.. and get these fuckers punished.
I mean, lets face it. What the fuck have we done to you to get you so angry at us? Are gay men so violent and anti social and hating of everything you do? Do we not keep our love secret and hidden away from you? Do we make your day so terrible that you need to attack us? Am i so bad that you can't even keep a friendship going?
And what of these people that bully someone into suicide? if "gay" wasn't even mentioned.. you would be stringing the little fuckers up in court and handing out tough jail time.. yet.. as soon as gay is mentioned, you barely do anything at all.
You paranoid, small minded fuckers who seem to think that you are better than us need to learn just one thing.. we are human too. We feel pain, worry, fear, sorrow, love, happiness, joy, anger, pride.. and every other emotion.. just like you. our blood is still red.
We were born this way, its not something we just woke up one day and said.. hey, you know what.. thats a good idea!.. we were made this way through genetics. Its not our fault. We do not blame you for needing hetrosexual love do we? we do not beat you guys into suicide and fear. We do not target you.
So here is my message to you guys out there.. be it, government, religious leaders, politicians, coppers, doctors, teachers, parents, dumb assed kids in the play ground, twats with the cardboard plaques in USA, naive followers of some fucked up religion (thinking that god was against homosexuality.. when in fact.. it was NEVER mentioned in the bible at all).. to all those who think that they can get away with fag beatings and queer bashing.. every single one of you fascist cunts...
One day, we will fight back.. and we will win.. we are everywhere..
And to those being bullied.. report it, tell anyone about it.. do what ever it takes to not suffer in silence. and if you feel that bad that you have to do something aweful to yourself.. stop and get help.. there are people out there who can help you escape the bullying.. and get these fuckers punished.
Gay and Bullied - You Can't Fake Tears
Gay Teen Jonah Mowry Says Bullying Made Him Stronger
Jonah Mowry, the 14-year-old whose heart-wrenching four-month-old YouTube video described his despair at being bullied for being gay, resurfaced online Sunday, telling his supporters he is doing just fine.Jonah, chewing gum and with a female friend by his side, says on a more recent YouTube video, “To the people who think nobody likes me … Everyone in my school loves me.”
Controversy has swirled around the videos this week, with some posting online their suspicions that the boy is a “fraud,” but ABCNews.com has learned today that Jonah is real.
“First and foremost, I am proud of the responses we’ve gotten from people,” said Peggy Sue Mowry, a hairdresser from Forest Lake, Calif. “I’m disappointed that people would question whether it’s” true.”
She said her son had been “uplifted by the outpouring of support.”
Advocacy groups praised Jonah for speaking out against bullying.
“This YouTube video illustrates a sobering reality about the bullying crisis in our schools,” said Andy Marra, spokesman for Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network (GLSEN). ”We know there are far too many students like Jonah that experience harassment simply because of their real or perceived sexual orientation or gender identity.”
In August Jonah posted a YouTube video titled, “Whats going on…” [sic] as Sia’s “Breathe Me” plays in the background. Crying and using a series of note cards, the boy says, “I’ve cut…a lot. I have scars. Suicide was an option…many times.”
He said he had been bullied since first grade and had first begun cutting himself in the second grade. Last August, when the video was made, Jonah was about the enter eighth grade.
The boy, who displays numerous scars in the video, claims he has sustained insults of, “Gay. Fag. D**k. Douche. Homo. A**hole.” His video ends optimistically: “I’m not going anywhere, because I’m stronger than that. I have a million reasons to be here.”
A Facebook page, dedicated to Jonah’s cause says, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.”
The video has gone viral, eliciting support from celebrities like gay singer Ricky Martin and blogger Perez Hilton.
Martin tweets: “one big rib breaking hug :0) ! Stay strong buddy! You are 1 courageous young man!!!”
Hilton said he has been in touch with Jonah via Twitter and the teen’s “optimism in the face of adversity is so inspiring!” He writes that he has invited the boy to an all-expense paid birthday party for the blog in March.
“He is so touched by all the love being sent his way,” blogs Hilton. ” He tells us he is truly in a much better place. Happier and with friends that care! Plus, he is also getting some counseling – something we’d recommend to anyone going through difficult times.”
Teen bullying has reached epidemic proportions and several young children have been so anguished they have killed themselves.
Nearly 9 out of 10 lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender students experienced harassment at school in the past year, according to GLSEN. All students deserve the right to reach their full potential and it is the responsibility of school staff to ensure safe learning environments for all that promote true respect for difference, the group says.
Just last year Phoebe Prince, a 15-year-old Irish immigrant, was found dead in her South Hadley, Mass., home after suffering incessant Facebook taunts.
Earlier this year, Jamey Rodemeyer, a 14-year-old from Buffalo, N.Y., took his own life after he was bullied online with gay slurs for more than a year. His death prompted Lady Gaga to express outrage over relentless torment social networking site.
http://abcnews.go.com/Health/video/gay-teens-anti-bullying-message-viral-15095755
http://youtu.be/zt5gvl5s2q4
Gay and Bullied
US gay teen Jamey Rodemeye thanks Lady Gaga before he commits suicide
A 14-year-old boy who blogged about being suicidal due to
being incessantly bullied at school has been found dead outside his
home in an apparent suicide.
Jamey Rodemeyer, from Buffalo, New York, cried for help online for months before his death and his family and friends said suicide was a popular topic with him.
He regularly posted about being bullied at school and how people would launch gay insults at him.
Jamey Rodemeyer, from Buffalo, New York, cried for help online for months before his death and his family and friends said suicide was a popular topic with him.
He regularly posted about being bullied at school and how people would launch gay insults at him.
But what was worse for Jamey, was that when he wrote of
his pain and frustrations and cried for help in his blog postings,
students at his school started to bully him online.
About 12 months ago on his Formspring account - which permits anonymous posts - other students started making gay references towards him.
'JAMIE IS STUPID, GAY, FAT ANND UGLY. HE MUST DIE!' read one post.
Another read: 'I wouldn't care if you died. No one would. So just do it :) It would make everyone WAY more happier!'
On September 9, Jamey wrote on his Tumblr site: 'I always say how bullied I am, but no one listens. What do I have to do so people will listen to me?'
The day before he wrote: 'No one in my school cares about preventing suicide, while you're the ones calling me [gay slur] and tearing me down.'
He put up a separate post that day letting everyone know it was National Suicide Prevention Week.
But still no one listened.
About 12 months ago on his Formspring account - which permits anonymous posts - other students started making gay references towards him.
'JAMIE IS STUPID, GAY, FAT ANND UGLY. HE MUST DIE!' read one post.
Another read: 'I wouldn't care if you died. No one would. So just do it :) It would make everyone WAY more happier!'
On September 9, Jamey wrote on his Tumblr site: 'I always say how bullied I am, but no one listens. What do I have to do so people will listen to me?'
The day before he wrote: 'No one in my school cares about preventing suicide, while you're the ones calling me [gay slur] and tearing me down.'
He put up a separate post that day letting everyone know it was National Suicide Prevention Week.
But still no one listened.
On Saturday night he posted a lyric from Lady Gaga's song
The Queen on his Facebook page which said: 'Don't forget me when I come
crying to heaven's door.'
On 1.30am on Sunday morning, he left two final messages on one of his blogs saying he was looking forward to seeing his great grandmother, who recently died, and one as a tribute to Lady Gaga, thanking her.
His mother Tracy Rodemeyer , told Buffalo News: 'He touched so many hearts, so many people. I didn't realize how many people he touched.
'He was the sweetest, kindest kid you'd ever know. He would give all his heart to you before he gave any to himself.'
She said that her son had been questioning his sexuality over the last year and that his fellow students picked up on it and used it to taunt and bully him.
On 1.30am on Sunday morning, he left two final messages on one of his blogs saying he was looking forward to seeing his great grandmother, who recently died, and one as a tribute to Lady Gaga, thanking her.
His mother Tracy Rodemeyer , told Buffalo News: 'He touched so many hearts, so many people. I didn't realize how many people he touched.
'He was the sweetest, kindest kid you'd ever know. He would give all his heart to you before he gave any to himself.'
She said that her son had been questioning his sexuality over the last year and that his fellow students picked up on it and used it to taunt and bully him.
Friends of the 14-year-old reported the message posts to
the school guidance counsellors, she said, but by then it may already
have been too late.
'He was totally against bullying. He has had issues since fifth grade. He had suicidal tendencies back then,' she told Buffalo News.
'He was totally against bullying. He has had issues since fifth grade. He had suicidal tendencies back then,' she told Buffalo News.
She said she tried to talk to him on numerous occasions
and asked him to talk to her about what was wrong, but he assured her
that he was OK.
Last weekend the family went to a camping spot they would frequently go to and she said he seemed really happy.
Mrs Rodemeyer said: 'He used to cry about the taunts from his peers but they didn't seem to phase him this time. Lately, he's been blowing them off, or at least we thought he was.'
Olivia Rinaldo, an eighth-grader at Heim Middle School, said she was drawn to his outwardly upbeat and extroverted personality. He made friends of the friendless, she said.
'He was always putting people first. He always wanted other people to smile, even on the worst of his days.'
She said even though he was seeing a social worker and a therapist, not enough was done to help him.
A letter was sent home to students on Monday morning informing them that he was dead.
Dale Bauer, a licensed school social worker and clinical social worker at North, said: 'We make it apparent to the kids that there's help all day long and in the days to come.'
Jamey was a new student at Williamsville North High School and the student known to have committed suicide there since 2010. Joe Chearmonte, a junior honor student, died in February of last year.
Last weekend the family went to a camping spot they would frequently go to and she said he seemed really happy.
Mrs Rodemeyer said: 'He used to cry about the taunts from his peers but they didn't seem to phase him this time. Lately, he's been blowing them off, or at least we thought he was.'
Olivia Rinaldo, an eighth-grader at Heim Middle School, said she was drawn to his outwardly upbeat and extroverted personality. He made friends of the friendless, she said.
'He was always putting people first. He always wanted other people to smile, even on the worst of his days.'
She said even though he was seeing a social worker and a therapist, not enough was done to help him.
A letter was sent home to students on Monday morning informing them that he was dead.
Dale Bauer, a licensed school social worker and clinical social worker at North, said: 'We make it apparent to the kids that there's help all day long and in the days to come.'
Jamey was a new student at Williamsville North High School and the student known to have committed suicide there since 2010. Joe Chearmonte, a junior honor student, died in February of last year.
Gay and Bullied
Bullied Gay Ottawa Teen Jamie Hubley Commits Suicide; Like Jamey Rodemeyer, He Documented Troubles Online
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