30th June 2000

My BF is baaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkk from irak. he be home tonite. i go see him. i so happy. i so so happy. i cry i so happy. i sneak out tonite an go see him.

Dear Azza

Hi, i have some bad news. i am ok. i dont know if you heard. but today, a dear friend of mine died when he was blown up next to my truck. we were on our way to **** *** **** and we came across some rubble.. and the IED team.. um.. bomb disposal people.. were searching this rubble.. and we were sat in the truck. and my co driver, a mate sat next to me got out of the truck and stood on a anti tank mine next to the door. and he died. i am in hospital at moment. i am ok. i swear. dont, please dont cry. i am all here. nothing missing. i just got a few cuts on my face. i was saved by an armour plating thing that deflected the blast away from me. i am only in hospital being looked at just in case. i know you wont understand. but i have changed. Iraq has finally changed me. i still love you. i always will. but i am now scared i may never come home. well. maybe i will. i will see if this will send me home for good. i will talk to you on Sat phone. ok.

i just wanted to prepare you. i may not be a pretty as i was. i have no mirror here to see what damage has been done. i miss you. i will be home soon.

****

Hi ****

I get your letter. thanks. it cool to read what you say. when you coming home? i miss you so much. nothing happen here. all boring. all quiet. no one to see or talk to. i keep watching my weight. i get fatter. ha. just like you say. i need eat. but it hard. i miss you. i cant wait till you get back. i love you. always

Azza

Hey Azza,

How is my favorite "Old Man" doing (lol) ? Well, me I doing okay I guess. You might have heard Tony Blair talk about all the Iraqi soldiers that will be trained by the end of this year. Well, I'm one of the instructors of this training, just giving them some driving lessons LOL. I have a squad of non-English speak people (one is an ex-Iraqi general who speaks a little English). We have translators that help out but a times it gets crazy when they start asking questions all at the same time. I'll take some pictures of us so you can see my 1st squad. It pretty cool but I feel bad for some of these people because for starters we have no real reason to be in their country. And now we are trying to make up for the things we did when we 1st got over here. They have to sign the wack contract saying that they will help us no matter what. Its sort of messed up for them. I can only pray that God forgives us for the way we treated some of these people. Well Azza, I hope everything is going okay with you all. I love you and miss you dearly.

Love Ya

Your Dad (ha)

Dear Aaron,

Well today was a real scare we had one of our machine gunners take one in the neck, but they said he is in stable condition right now. Thank gods healing hands. Four hour fire fight, they sure have a strong D set up. Nothing we cant handle though. I sure think about you all the time and pray that god brings me back to you, preferably sooner than later. So how are you doing? I hope really good. I carry a picture of you in my cavalar (helmet), and another of you and I in my back pocket. So you are allways with me. Baby I sure hope you know I love you. You have already changed me as a person, for the better by far. You have no idea how thankful I am for the way you are standing in my corner. One day you will have that rock on your hand that you deserve. I have a little plan for that it just might take a year or two. So have you talked to Craig? How is your family doing? How's School, wish I could find a way of coming home. I am really becomming a skinny punk. Well baby I love you with every thing I got. Keep your head high.

I LOVE YOU

1000...X

****

hiya ****

i got ya letta. it very long. ha. i miss you so much yeah. i cry at nite all the time. i dont know what to say. skool is shit. nothing to do. and it rains all the time. i am so bored. and i wait for you to come home soon. i look after your house. i stay over most nite. but been at ma home mostly. ma mum say i seem angry all time. but i say i am just sad. i miss you. come home soon.

Azza

Dear Aaron

Hiya Aaron, hope all is well back in England. I miss you so much. At this moment in time i am at base camp in *** ** ***** Iraq. Yesterday we took a load of supplies to another base and it was a shit day. Took us 5 hours to drive 10 miles. lots of bombs and stupid people making us pissed off.

I know its late, but happy birthday. i would have written sooner, but Royal Mail isn't exactly based out here with us. it takes forever to send something back to England from out here. And they do read what we write so i can't even tell you what i am thinking right now.

Apart from that. its bloody hot out here. i am getting sick of sand. its sand everywhere. in my boots, in my food, on my face and in my clothes. pitty there is not sea here. it would make this sand so much more tollerable. the food is not so great either. i am starting to miss fish and chips. all i get to eat is ration pack meals and sometimes something different. i am getting a good tan though. nice and brown now. just to make you jealous.

well. soon i will be getting some RR. and maybe able to come back to England soon. but only for a week or so. i will try and phone you. if i get the chance. well. must go now. i got to go and clean the toilets. nice job, not. but it gets me extra money every month. well Aaron, i will be back soon. i miss you so much. and i hope to be back again and see your smile again.

Lots of Love

Dad. (ha.)

Dairy Entries November 2000 to December 2000

24^th November 2000 Friday

my b’day. I am 11 yeah yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh I get presents.

20^th December 2000 Wednesday

Nite of horses. Ha so funny ma bf in deep shite wiv cops. Ha. So funny.

21^st December 2000 Thursday

I go see ma nanas again. But jus for week. I be bak afta x mas

26^th December 2000 Tuesday

I sad. My bf he go some wher call irak he no bak june. He sa he is going ta war. An I is sad too he cry wiv me all night an he sa that anyfink happen to him that I am not to cry. I promise. But I cant kep promise. I cry I don like this world anymore. Why he have to go away so long. I so piss off now. I jus go bak from nanas. An first ting he tell me he go away. Life no fair.

Dairy Entries July 2000 to November 2000

1^st July 2000 Saturday

I stil grounded. I go caught smoke. An I get two week ground. Fuk I am piss off

15^th July 2000 Saturday

I bak. I off ground to day. I get see ma bf again. I go see him. I cant be ask to write anyfink

16^th September 2000 Saturday

ha bin age since I write in er. Nofin much happen. I forget. Jus same blah blah blah.

28^th October 2000 Saturday

HOLIDAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! I bak. I find my diary again. I lost it. Ha. Yeah yeah well. Lot happen but I don remeba. So. I gues it lost in memory. Soon ma bf birthday. He almost 23 now. He old. Ha. Yeah yeah yeah. I soon 11. I old now. Ha. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

31^st October 2000 Tuesday

halloweeen. We go trik treat. An scare everyon. I go as scary ghost. Haaaaaaaaaaa.. I scare ya. I share ma sweet wiv my bf an we get fat. So full I burst.,

1^st November 2000 Wednesday

my bf b’day. He is 23. so I giv him 23 kissy kissy an I give him 23 suk an fuk. He need all ma luv an all my life. I luv him. Yeah yeah yeah

Diary Entries June 2000 to July 2000

4^th June 2000 Sunday

MA BF BAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKK he is bak he is bak I see him in 15 min I go see him an we have kissy kissy all day an all nite. I wan ta see him now. I go an see him. Yeah yeah yeah… I so happy I so happy. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

5^th June 2000 Monday

I sleep wiv my bf last nite we fuk most day. An my dik hurt so much. I fink we do it 5 tim and he sa he got stop. He all tanned. Been awy somewhere hot. I don know wher. But he so good to be bak I soo soo happy. Yeah yeah yeah

6^th June 2000 Tuesday

we hav all day togeva. We spend all day drivin around. We kissy all da time. And hold hand. I lik sunny. He walk in short. An I lik his legs. Ha yeah yeah yeah

7^th June 2000 Wednesday

fuk me. Had shower toda wiv my BF. It were so fuckin hot. First time we shower togeva. I was lik omfg. Yeah babe. It was so awesome. Ha. Yeah Yeah Yeah.. this is becomin best ever time in ma life. Get me bruva. xxxxxxx

8^th June 2000 Thursday

we go beach today. All day. Best day eva. I swear. I luv him more now. We play on beach an go jet ski. An I come back wiv mor t shirt ha. I got loads now. Yeah yeah yeah

9^th June 2000 Friday

today. We go walk in hills. He take me up big mountain. I so tired

10^th June 2000 Saturday

I got blister. I no walk. I hav ta stay on sofa an watch tv. So good. Ha. No move all day.

11^th June 2000 Sunday

I betta now. I go ta skool again morning. It shite. But I had good summer at end. I don like my bf go away. But he say it his job. We talk about it. He say he may go for 6 month soon. Fuk no. I won let him.

17^th June 2000 Saturday

skool good. It so hot today. We play football an I get sent off. Ha. I do on purpos

18^th June 2000 Sunday

bak ta skool. Bf an I hav good week end. I luv him to def. yeah yeah yeah

24^th June 2000 Saturday

I grounded. I swear at techr. She a cunt. I sa that to her. Cunt cunt cunt.

 

25^th June 2000 Sunday

I steal my mum fags today. I start smoke. I wan ta see wa it lik. I hav first an I sik. But I hav another. I don car fuk em all.

Dairy Entries March 2000

4^th March 2000 Saturday

BF bak but he got bad news. He go away til june. I cry all day. He say he write letta to me every week an try an phone me. I don know how. He away wiv army. I will miss him. I so sad I don know wat to do.

Diary Entries January 2000 to Feb 2000

15^th January 2000 Saturday

I watch watership down 4 first time. I cry. But it got rabbit in cool.

16^th January 2000 Sunday

today we go 4 walk in town. An I hold bf hand an we but som stuff from market. I get new cd and a few posters

22^nd January 2000 Saturday

skool is ok this week. We have fun. We go on skool trip on wedneday, we go see some wind mill. An ma mate at skool he barf on bus. Ha. Yeah yeah yeah.

23^rd January 2000 Sunday

I spend time at home today. Ma mum start wonder why I go ta **** house all time.

29^th January 2000 Saturday

no bf today. I grounded. I have argument at skool wiv teacher.

30^th January 2000 Sunday

I piss off. I grounded

5^th February 2000 Saturday

I no longa grounded. I try an get out house now. It doing ma hed in.

6^th February 2000 Sunday

ma dad smack me. Fuk dis world. I hate you all.

12^th February 2000 Saturday

I grounded again. Fuk why. I no steal da fuckin money. Ma dad drink it.

13^th February 2000 Sunday

I stay in ma room all day

19^th February 2000 Saturday

HOLIDAY!!!!!!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH I no grouned. I get out an go see ma bf now. We gonna go have fuk all day. Ha. I can wait.

20^th February 2000 Sunday

I stay at bf tonight. I don care. I sneak out my bedroom an com over me bf house.

21^st February 2000 Monday

I eat ma bf come today. I mak swallow. An it all salty. But I don care.

22^nd February 2000 Tuesday

ma pen don work. So dis is gonna …

26^th February 2000 Saturday

got new pen now. I am wiv bf all day. But home tonite. I stay in an bed early.

27^th February 2000 Sunday

I stay in all day. Bf away. He say be back next week end. bord

Dairy Entries December 1999 to January 2000

4^th December 1999 Saturday

BF work is week end borin

5^th December 1999 Sunday

so bord. No bf. No on ta play wiv.

11^th December 1999 Saturday

weather shit. I go se ma BF an we stay in. all day. I in no mood for no sex tanite. So we jus watch tv. I fink I have cold.

12^th December 1999 Sunday

I feel better. I kissy most day. An I get him hard. An I get ta wank him. It on. It big. but no make cum. He was tired. So I just play when watch tv wiv him. I go home an get sleep now. Skool morning.. last week b4 holiday. Yeah yeah yeah.

17^th December 1999 Friday

HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No skool till next year. Yeah yeah yeah. Tonite I go ta bf house an sleep there. We gonna have fun.

18^th December 1999 Saturday

we done it again. Dis time he do me proper. Full in. ha. It hurt but I lik. It made me fel lik I ned shit.

19^th December 1999 Sunday

we do it again. Dis time betta. It no so hurt this tim. I getting use ta this. It gettin more betta yeah yeah yeah xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

20^th December 1999 Monday

we do it in kitchen. It no comfy lik bed. But it real horny. It mak ma ass numb from table. Ha. We is kinky. Yeah. I so in luv

21^st December 1999 Tuesday

I go nan tomorrow. It gonna be shit. No sex now for week. So we do suk an fuk an we sleep huggin. It sweet. I feel lik badda boom badda boom

22^nd December 1999 Wednesday

goin ta nans. I piss off. No bf for week

29^th December 1999 Wednesday

bak from nans. Get present I hav ok xmas. It no fun wiv out bf. It too late ta see him now.

30^th December 1999 Thursday

I get him suk me. An I suk him. Maybe first tim. I no remebr. But it big an he come in ma mouth. I almost sik. Like snot. But I get use to it. It real good. Ha. I in luv. Yeah yeah yeah

31^st December 1999 Friday

I need put on weight I am stil small.

1^st January 2000 Saturday

new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We go out an find street party. I eat so many hotdog. I full ta burst. We have little fuk tonite I so full I don wan be sik.

2^nd January 2000 Sunday

no sex tonite bf ill. He go cold

5^th January 2000 Wednesday

bf still go cold. No fun.

6^th January 2000 Thursday

well enouf for sex. We do in bedroom an on stair. He no last long. But he come on ma bak

7^th January 2000 Friday

we go ta town today. Jan sale. We buy loads stuff. I get 6 new t shirt. An necklas

8^th January 2000 Saturday

bf take me ta macdonald. An we walk around town. Suk l8tr an we play footy in  café. It wa fun. Such a laff

9^th January 2000 Sunday

bak ta skool tomorrow. Early nite. No fun. Skool shit.

Dairy Entries 1999. Sept to November 1999

Dairy Entries September 1999 and November 1999

11^th September 1999 Saturday.

I cam out taday wiv my new BF. Kool huh! I tell em all I am gay. I so luv new BF. Xxx 4eva

12^th September 1999 Sunday

my brother know summut not right. He know I am to happy and I got some ting to hide. I must keep my secret safe. Betta be more careful.

18^th September 1999 Saturday

I kiss him. I kissy kissy him first tim. We now BF official. Get me. Yeah. Yeah Yeah Yeah. I av a BF I feel so good. I luv him 4evea. And eva. I can believ it yeah. Omg. Dis is happen so fast. But I don’t care. Xxxx I am in luv.

19^th September 1999 Sunday

we talk about last nite. He so scared. I don’t know why? But I think I bring him round. He will luv me back I promise. But he talk and talk blah blah blah.

25^th September 1999 Saturday

we snog on my drive way tonite. I am so randy. Dude. I am realy sexed up. Ha. It was so sweet. His tong lik down ma neck. Ha. I fink I have luv bite. Yeah yeah yeah. xxxx

this week wa shit. Skool drivin me crazy. I hat dem fucking teacher fuck em all.

26^th September 1999 Sunday

bak ta skool in morning. Fuckin assholes. Another week without ma BF I try an mak it ova some tim. We got lot to talk about I guess. He need to hurry up an make choice.

2^nd October 1999 Saturday

skool  shit this week. I saw fight in play ground. I jus keep away. Din get to go see my BF dis wek. Saw him all day today. We had lot of chats and we watch movies. I kiss him again today an again. And again. Ha. I kiss him all day. I ask him if we need kiss som more. Ha. Yeah yeah yeah.xxx I kissy kissy again.

3^rd October 1999 Sunday

don homework it shit but hav ta do. Skool morning. Ah fuk it. I kissy ma bf again an make him hard on sofa. Ha. It funny. He don know I see im. But I do. An I am hard to. But I don’t want sa yet. I wait til he say it ok. I don know. I fink about dis in week. Yeah.

9^th October 1999 Saturday

I no see my bf this week. He workin all week end

10^th October 1999 Sunday

I am bored. No bf. Nothing to do. I just sleep all day.

16^th October 1999 Saturday

I go see ma bf again. I see him an make ma room better at his. I get most ma stuff there now. An my poster on the walls. And my cds. He wan me to keep clean thoug. But I don care. I kissy kissy him and he is ok. He jus go hard and we sort it. Ha. Yeah yeah yeah.

17^th October 1999 Sunday

had ta go with ma parent today. No bf. I so pissed off.

23^rd October 1999 Saturday

holiday next week. I can wait. Skool is shit. I hate it. But I can wait till holiday. I see my BF all holiday you see. We kissy and kissy som more. Yeah.

24^th October 1999 Sunday

home work done. It crap as always but I will jus say I lost it. Fuck it.

29^th October 1999 Friday

HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!! I try sleep ova at my bf house tonite. I ben good so I will be allowed. I throw skool kit away and never go bak ha. I wish. I see ma bf. Kissy again and again.

30^th October 1999 Saturday

we chat agin today about love n getin togeva like properly. Well it borin but we have to lik sa about it yeah. And soon I know he will git me bum luv. I know he will. So we gotta tchat bout it. I guess.

31^st October 1999 Sunday

BF B’day tomorrow an bak at skool. Fuk sak. I want day off. Anyway. Bak ta skool an I will miss ma BF. I cant sa anyfink at all thou neva. It secret. I must giv ma BF a snog he won forget for B’day. Yeah yeah yeah. And soon my B’day.

 

1^st November 1999 Monday Birthday

I gav ma BF biggest snog tonite. His stiffy was massive. I fink I mad him come ha. We snog 4 lik ages an ages. My chin all wet. I am still shackin. It was so hot. Man. Ha. Ha ha ha Yeah Yeah Yeah babe.. I am so sexyed up agin. I hav to hav a wank. xxxxxx

6^th November 1999 Saturday

my bf ask me ta snog again. Lik last week. Ha. He remember. Yeah. We kiss. And snog and I wank in his toilet. Ha. Shh he no know. Haaaaa. I keep askin for bum luv. I just need some more tim an I get it. I swear. I luv him so much. xxxxxx

7^th November 1999 Sunday

weather shit soo bored.

13^th November 1999 Saturday

I ask again for som bum luv. But he say no. not yet, I fink he get angry at me keep askin. I better cool for a week. An see what happen. I kissy him though. Most of day. I hold his hand first tim. It wa sweet.

14^th November 1999 Sunday

last nite I get bum luv from my BF. I ain’t no virgin no more! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! I fel real lik funny inside. My heat badda boom badda boom. I can beliv it I am a man. Ha. Ha. Ha. Xxxx

20^th November 1999 Saturday

I ask 4 suk today. I ask an bitch an ask an he won give in. I must try an get him bak. Last week we do bum luv. But he too scare now ta touch me. I fink he is ashame. I must mak sure he cool. Or we are finish. An dat break ma heart. So. Must talk. Dis week end.

21^st November 1999 Sunday

we talk about last wek he ok. I fink. He still sayin he feel bad. I try harder. Next wed my B’day. I wan special day. So I hope he bum luv me. I make him want it. I get him hard. You see. Yeah yeah yeah.

24^th November 1999 Wednesday

ma B’day!!!!!!!!!! I am 10.!!!! Yeah. I hav best b day eva. I go out pizza hut wiv ma bf an ma mum an dad an bro. an I get present. Ma bf buy me wrist band an maiden cds. I have loads now. An I get t shirt an leather jacket. I so happy. An to mak betta. I get snog an suk from ma bf. He did it. He suk me. Fuk me. I am so hapy. I cry. I cry now. I luv you. Yeah.x xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

27^th November 1999 Saturday

ma bf no upset now. He no longer wory. I finally get him. Yeah I finaly get him. We now in deep luv. Yeah YEAAAAAAHHH I am so happy. I get suk again. An we snog. I wa to suk him but he say no at moment. Ok. Not all bad. I getting suk an play and snog. He def ma BF now. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

28^th November 1999 Sunday

we sit naked in bf house all day we watch tv an I kiss him and he allow me ta play wiv his cock. He suk me an give me luv bite. Ha. Yeah good day today. Bak skool moring. Shit.